Insomnia Rears It's Ugly Head

Please note the time. I have been up for several hours. I went to bed after midnight. I've been doing this for the last several days. Right now I feel desperate to get some sleep. My only desire is to sleep. Luckily I've learned to cope with getting little sleep, but occasionally when I've had an especially difficult episode I feel like I can't even move. I'm so tired I lay on the couch so I can keep an eye on my kids and I just don't move because any exertion of energy hurts. Insomnia seems to be a problem anytime there is anything happening in my life, a lot of times stress induced, but a lot of times when I am really happy. I can never sleep on a vacation. It is as if my brain won't shut off. After about 4 or 5 days of getting 2-3 hours of sleep I start to get depressed and irritable and antisocial (hence the toaster incident). A lot of times i will get up and start my day at 3:00 a.m. and by about 2 p.m. I just can't move any more. This is so frustrating for me because I want to get up and do things. Then i remind myself that I am having a 21 hour day and that I got less sleep in the last three days then I am supposed to get in one night. I had tried everything and nothing worked until I finally went to the doctor and got a prescription for sleep aids. That was the best thing I ever did. I just put up with it for 11 years. I only take the sleep aids when It is really bad. I should have taken one last night because I am feeling worn down. I also stay away from caffeine completely, keep my room as dark as possible, got to bed on an empty stomach etc. Alright, I am done complaining about by problems. i know that people have much worse problems and that i am blessed, but I do feel much better.